Summary:

five things Buffy Summers pretends not to think about, 
and one thing she doesn't even try to hide anymore

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Series: all the reasons why
Categories: Season 5, Season 6, Season 7, Post-Series, Canon Compliant, Missing Scene
Characters: Buffy, Spike
Genres: Angst, Drama, Romance, Tragedy
Warnings: (Click Here To Reveal) Character Death
Completed: Yes Chapters: 6
Word count: 5,305 Hit Count: 1,858 ePub Downloads: 12
Published: 05/27/23 Updated: 06/07/23


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Story Notes: ObDisc: Sadly, any characters or plots you recognise do not belong to me. I will, however, look after the characters, and make sure I put them back (almost) as good as new when I'm done ;)
 
Gratitude to DeepBlueJoy for beta-ing the whole thing early on and to medievalchic for invaluable input on the last few chapters. You are both wonderful 
 
The Spuffy relationship in all its messy glory, end of S5 thru post-Chosen. Canon compliant. Six chapters total.

1. emotions by flootzavut - Likes: 6 Comments: 9 Word Count: 1,097 Hit Count: 448 Published: 05/27/23

2. comfort by flootzavut - Likes: 3 Comments: 3 Word Count: 714 Hit Count: 315 Published: 05/28/23

3. friendship by flootzavut - Likes: 5 Comments: 5 Word Count: 714 Hit Count: 273 Published: 05/30/23

4. tenderness by flootzavut - Likes: 5 Comments: 5 Word Count: 634 Hit Count: 286 Published: 05/31/23

5. forgiveness by flootzavut - Likes: 4 Comments: 5 Word Count: 1,974 Hit Count: 269 Published: 06/05/23

This was, by some considerable margin, the hardest chapter of this story to write, and I'm still not sure I hit every note I wanted to. Trying to get into the Spuffy relationship of late season seven and do it justice, and to also take into account all the other things happening that season, and do all this from inside Buffy's head, was hard. But I did my best, and I hope you'll enjoy the end result and forgive me for the remaining imperfections. Particular thank you to DeepBlueJoy for giving me feedback on an early version, and to medievalchic for beta-ing a version much closer to the one you're reading here 

CW for a reference to the assault in Seeing Red.

6. regret by flootzavut - Likes: 7 Comments: 9 Word Count: 172 Hit Count: 267 Published: 06/07/23