Sunnydale After Dark
Bittersweets by Herselfnyc
Summary: An ongoing series of Spike/Buffy tales, meant to be read in order.  The first springs from "Wrecked" in season six; the series veers off from canon at that point.  These stories are het NC-17, with some slashy flashbacks. 
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rnWinner of Best Series in the 2002 Watching You awards. Nominated in numerous categories in the Fall, 2003 Eternal Devotion Awards. Winner Best Conventional Pairing Series, Outstanding Conventional Author, Round 8 of the Shades of Grey Awards, November 2003.
All Wrong by Herselfnyc [NC-17] Likes: 7 Comments: 2
Summary: She can't go on, she'll go on. Spike and Buffy meet again, post Wrecked. (Completed December 2001)
Series: Bittersweets
Categories: Season 6
Characters: Buffy, Spike
Genres: Angst, Drama
Warnings: (Click Here To Reveal) Adult Language, Sexual Situations
Completed: Yes Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Word count: 4,085 Hit Count: 140 ePub Downloads: 3
Published: 06/30/22 Updated: 06/30/22
Near Enough by Herselfnyc [NC-17] Likes: 6 Comments: 1
Summary: Ten minutes in bed with Spike and Buffy. (Completed late December, 2001)
Series: Bittersweets
Categories: Season 6
Characters: Buffy, Spike
Genres: Angst, Drama
Warnings: (Click Here To Reveal) Adult Language, Sexual Situations
Completed: Yes Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Word count: 1,490 Hit Count: 98 ePub Downloads: 2
Published: 06/30/22 Updated: 06/30/22
Manhattan Nocturne by Herselfnyc [Adult Only] Likes: 4 Comments: 1
Summary: New York City, 1928. Spike arrives in the big city and proceeds to look around. He sees a few things he likes.
Series: Bittersweets
Categories: Pre-Series
Characters: Drusilla, Spike
Genres: Angst, Dark, Drama
Warnings: (Click Here To Reveal) Adult Language, Blood Play, Rape (Actual), Rape (Implied), Sexual Situations, Spike/Other (Temp), Violence
Completed: Yes Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Word count: 10,687 Hit Count: 80 ePub Downloads: 3
Published: 07/01/22 Updated: 07/01/22
Listening to Garnetta by Herselfnyc [NC-17] Likes: 5 Comments: 0
Summary: Buffy really gets the blues. (It's a good idea to have read "Manhattan Nocturne" before turning to this one.) (Completed late December/early January 2002)
Series: Bittersweets
Categories: Season 6
Characters: Buffy, Spike
Genres: Angst, Drama
Warnings: (Click Here To Reveal) Adult Language, Sexual Situations
Completed: Yes Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Word count: 3,420 Hit Count: 59 ePub Downloads: 2
Published: 06/30/22 Updated: 06/30/22
Who Am I? by Herselfnyc [NC-17] Likes: 2 Comments: 1
Summary: Buffy's pretty sure she doesn't know. Spike hopes she'll figure it out. (Completed January 2002)
Series: Bittersweets
Categories: Season 6
Characters: Buffy, Spike
Genres: Angst, Drama
Warnings: (Click Here To Reveal) Adult Language, Sexual Situations
Completed: Yes Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Word count: 8,145 Hit Count: 56 ePub Downloads: 2
Published: 06/30/22 Updated: 06/30/22
Forgive Me by Herselfnyc [NC-17] Likes: 4 Comments: 1
Summary: Will he? Will she? There's plenty to forgive on both sides. (Completed January 2002)
Series: Bittersweets
Categories: Season 6
Characters: Buffy, Spike
Genres: Angst, Drama
Warnings: (Click Here To Reveal) Adult Language, Blood Play, Rape (Actual), Sexual Situations
Completed: Yes Chapters: 2 Table of Contents
Word count: 16,508 Hit Count: 98 ePub Downloads: 3
Published: 06/30/22 Updated: 06/30/22
What's It To Be? by Herselfnyc [NC-17] Likes: 9 Comments: 2
Summary: Buffy, Spike, and that old black magic . . . (Completed February 2002)
Series: Bittersweets
Categories: Season 6
Characters: Buffy, Spike
Genres: Angst, Drama
Warnings: (Click Here To Reveal) Adult Language, Sexual Situations
Completed: Yes Chapters: 3 Table of Contents
Word count: 30,229 Hit Count: 118 ePub Downloads: 2
Published: 06/30/22 Updated: 06/30/22
Spike, Or The Ambiguities by Herselfnyc [NC-17] Likes: 3 Comments: 1
Summary: Because nothing is pure black and white... (Completed March/April 2002)
Series: Bittersweets
Categories: Season 6
Characters: Buffy, Spike
Genres: Angst, Drama
Warnings: (Click Here To Reveal) Adult Language, Sexual Situations
Completed: Yes Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Word count: 14,309 Hit Count: 47 ePub Downloads: 3
Published: 06/30/22 Updated: 06/30/22
Mr Grieves And The Fallen Woman by Herselfnyc [NC-17] Likes: 6 Comments: 0
Summary: Buffy finds herself in 19th century London, and meets someone she thinks she knows. (Completed April 2002)
Series: Bittersweets
Categories: Season 6
Characters: Buffy, Spike, William
Genres: Angst, Drama
Warnings: (Click Here To Reveal) Adult Language, Sexual Situations
Completed: Yes Chapters: 2 Table of Contents
Word count: 20,601 Hit Count: 81 ePub Downloads: 4
Published: 06/30/22 Updated: 06/30/22
The Littler Bit by Herselfnyc [NC-17] Likes: 12 Comments: 0
Summary: Tuberculosis, gonorrhea, and unpleasant revelations aren't the only things Buffy brings back with her from her sojourn in London, 1880. (Completed May 2002) 
Series: Bittersweets
Categories: Season 6
Characters: Buffy, Spike
Genres: Angst, Baby/Kid, Drama
Warnings: (Click Here To Reveal) Adult Language, Sexual Situations
Completed: Yes Chapters: 3 Table of Contents
Word count: 32,281 Hit Count: 207 ePub Downloads: 5
Published: 06/30/22 Updated: 06/30/22
All Merry and Bright by Herselfnyc [NC-17] Likes: 2 Comments: 0
Summary: This is a little sequel to "The Littler Bit." Very little happens in it. (Completed August 2002)
Series: Bittersweets
Categories: Season 6
Characters: Buffy, Spike
Genres: Baby/Kid, Drama, Romance
Warnings: (Click Here To Reveal) Adult Language, Sexual Situations
Completed: Yes Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Word count: 4,136 Hit Count: 44 ePub Downloads: 3
Published: 07/01/22 Updated: 07/01/22
Not My Beautiful House by Herselfnyc [NC-17] Likes: 4 Comments: 0
Summary: As Spike goes after that dragon, he finds himself instead where he least expected.
Written for the seasonal_spuffy community on Livejournal. Spoilers for all of BtVS and Angel, and for The Bittersweets stories through All Merry & Bright. Winner, Best Long Story, Best Spike Characterization, Love's Last Glimpse awards, March '07. (Completed March 2006)
Series: Bittersweets
Categories: Crossover (AtS), Post-Series, Award Winners
Characters: Buffy, Spike
Genres: Alternate Reality, Drama
Warnings: (Click Here To Reveal) Adult Language, Sexual Situations
Completed: Yes Chapters: 2 Table of Contents
Word count: 22,072 Hit Count: 82 ePub Downloads: 2
Published: 07/01/22 Updated: 07/01/22
Yours by Herselfnyc [PG] Likes: 5 Comments: 1
Summary: "I could tell she was trying to figure out if I was in some kind of lesbian ménage-a-trois, and you were dead—" (Completed May 2003)
Series: Bittersweets
Categories: Post-Series
Characters: Buffy, Spike
Genres: Alternate Reality, Angst, Drama
Warnings: None
Completed: Yes Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Word count: 827 Hit Count: 639 ePub Downloads: 2
Published: 07/01/22 Updated: 07/01/22
Forsake Me Not by Herselfnyc [NC-17] Likes: 12 Comments: 0
Summary: "All this time, they thought I loved them, the way they love me. But I can't love." (Completed August 2003)

Winner for Best General Angst (Readers' Choice), Best General Long Fiction (Judges' Choice) at the Spuffy Awards Round 4. Winner, Round 9 Judges' Picks, Spuffy Awards.
Series: Bittersweets
Categories: Post-Series, Award Winners
Characters: Buffy, Spike
Genres: Alternate Reality, Angst, Drama
Warnings: (Click Here To Reveal) Adult Language, Sexual Situations, Spike/Other (Temp)
Completed: Yes Chapters: 4 Table of Contents
Word count: 49,213 Hit Count: 144 ePub Downloads: 3
Published: 07/01/22 Updated: 07/01/22
Mrs Grieves & The Abandoned Husband by Herselfnyc [NC-17] Likes: 6 Comments: 1
Summary: Spike gripped his wrist tighter. "You're tragic, you are. No—no, not even tragic. Not good enough to be tragic." (Completed November 2003)

Judge's Choice Winner at Love's Last Glimpse Round 20.
Series: Bittersweets
Categories: Post-Series, Award Winners
Characters: Buffy, Spike, William
Genres: Alternate Reality, Angst, Drama
Warnings: (Click Here To Reveal) Adult Language, Sexual Situations
Completed: Yes Chapters: 3 Table of Contents
Word count: 38,758 Hit Count: 66 ePub Downloads: 3
Published: 07/01/22 Updated: 07/01/22
A Nice Place To Visit, But ... by Herselfnyc [NC-17] Likes: 6 Comments: 2
Summary: "Something's gone wonky, yeah, an' you're not in 1997 anymore, Buffy. This is your future. These children, they're yours. Ours."

A tale set in the Bittersweet-verse, post Mrs Grieves & The Abandoned Husband.
Series: Bittersweets
Categories: Season 2, Post-Series
Characters: Angel, Buffy, Cordelia, Dawn, Giles, Spike, Willow, Xander
Genres: Alternate Reality, Angst, Drama, Time Travel
Warnings: (Click Here To Reveal) Adult Language, Sexual Situations
Completed: Yes Chapters: 2 Table of Contents
Word count: 20,508 Hit Count: 135 ePub Downloads: 5
Published: 07/01/22 Updated: 07/01/22
Where They Have To Take You In by Herselfnyc [NC-17] Likes: 35 Comments: 3
Summary: "There are things everywhere that'll break your heart. Just break it. Fortunately, you can live a big big life, even with a broken heart."
A novel-length story, complete in 10* parts, in The Bittersweets series, set twenty-one years after the events of Mrs Grieves & The Abandoned Husband. (Completed August 2004)

Runner up for Best Long Story at Love's Last Glimpse Awards 2005.
*Has been split into more than ten parts due to chapter length maximums.
Series: Bittersweets
Categories: Post-Series, Award Runners-Up
Characters: Angel, Buffy, Original Characters, Spike
Genres: Alternate Reality, Angst, Drama
Warnings: (Click Here To Reveal) Adult Language, Blood Play, Buffy/Other (Temp), Sexual Situations, Spike/Other (Temp), Violence
Completed: Yes Chapters: 17 Table of Contents
Word count: 184,891 Hit Count: 300 ePub Downloads: 5
Published: 07/01/22 Updated: 07/01/22
Mr Grieves and the Vengeance Girl by Herselfnyc [NC-17] Likes: 2 Comments: 0
Summary: A story in the Bittersweets-verse that was never completed.
Set after Where They Have To Take You In, and continuing the story of William Grieves (aka Spike), following Mrs Grieves & The Abandoned Husband.
Series: Bittersweets
Categories: Post-Series
Characters: Buffy, Spike, William
Genres: Angst, Drama
Warnings: (Click Here To Reveal) Chooses Not to Use Warnings
Completed: No Chapters: 2 Table of Contents
Word count: 25,940 Hit Count: 35 ePub Downloads: 4
Published: 07/03/22 Updated: 07/03/22
Rise in the Evening by Herselfnyc [NC-17] Likes: 2 Comments: 1
Summary: Buffy is terminally ill. There are choices to be made.
A sort of AU from the Bittersweets-verse, ie, definitely not part of the official saga.
Series: Bittersweets
Categories: Post-Series
Characters: Anya, Buffy, Giles, Spike, Tara, Willow, Xander
Genres: Angst, Baby/Kid, Dark, Drama
Warnings: (Click Here To Reveal) Chooses Not to Use Warnings, Vampire!Buffy
Completed: No Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Word count: 11,424 Hit Count: 47 ePub Downloads: 3
Published: 07/03/22 Updated: 07/03/22
A Crazy Gorram Story by Herselfnyc [NC-17] Likes: 6 Comments: 0
Summary:
There's gorram eccentrics all over. 
Series: Bittersweets
Categories: Crossover , Post-Series
Characters: Angel, Buffy, Spike
Genres: Angst, Apocalyptic/Dystopian , Drama
Warnings: (Click Here To Reveal) Adult Language, Buffy/Other (Temp), Sexual Situations, Spike/Other (Temp)
Completed: No Chapters: 3 Table of Contents
Word count: 18,158 Hit Count: 69 ePub Downloads: 3
Published: 07/05/22 Updated: 07/05/22